Thursday, August 5, 2010

Getting back in the painting groove - getting over loss

This summer has been one big blur. I feel as if I am awakening from a dream, a bit of a nightmare really. It started in winter when my mother-in-law, whom I love dearly, fell and had a major break in her pelvis. Then she fell again which resulted in an even worse outcome the 2nd time.

I am so grateful that I spent time with her in May. In fact, as I cared for her, I spent time painting, which she adored. She was so very proud of me for being an artist. She always made me feel as if I was very special.

So I digress, the nightmare that I refer to is the eventual loss of this sensitive and loving mother figure in my life. She was so tired of living in pain, and in a way, I know she wsa ready and even embracing the idea of death, but I was not ready. No one who knew and loved her was ready either.
Once all the initial shock and pain from the loss sunk in, I decided to interpret it in a painting, simply called "Loss."

I feel kind of selfish just discussing my pain, but after all, this IS my blog. I do feel I should mention that my husband, and his immediate family who lost a precious jewel from their lives as well, but for now I deal with my pain in the only way I know how. I can't presume to know the depth of their loss, but I do know how I feel.

2 comments:

  1. So very sorry to hear about your loss Cheryl,just read about it here on your blog.
    It's strange but after a loss like this the world just does not feel the same any longer. In the beginning one mostly feels numb and under shock,the grieving can be long and hard and at times feel like never ending but sometime down this road will come a day when you will remember her and be able to smile without such a heavy heart.
    Thinking of you!
    Annette.

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  2. Cheryl, your mom-in-law sounds like a beautiful person. And she must have loved having you for a daughter! I'm just now catching up with my blog reading (a snow day here) and was reminded that you'd lost her earlier this year. What a blessing for you to have her in your life and for her, as well. I hope you and Van are doing alright and all is well. take care, Pat (Anna)

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