Getting back in the painting groove - getting over loss

This summer has been one big blur. I feel as if I am awakening from a dream, a bit of a nightmare really. It started in winter when my mother-in-law, whom I love dearly, fell and had a major break in her pelvis. Then she fell again which resulted in an even worse outcome the 2nd time.

I am so grateful that I spent time with her in May. In fact, as I cared for her, I spent time painting, which she adored. She was so very proud of me for being an artist. She always made me feel as if I was very special.

So I digress, the nightmare that I refer to is the eventual loss of this sensitive and loving mother figure in my life. She was so tired of living in pain, and in a way, I know she wsa ready and even embracing the idea of death, but I was not ready. No one who knew and loved her was ready either.
Once all the initial shock and pain from the loss sunk in, I decided to interpret it in a painting, simply called "Loss."

I feel kind of selfish just discussing my pain, but after all, this IS my blog. I do feel I should mention that my husband, and his immediate family who lost a precious jewel from their lives as well, but for now I deal with my pain in the only way I know how. I can't presume to know the depth of their loss, but I do know how I feel.